Timing, Blessings & Changing

Last time we talked I had just flown down to Mississippi for a job interview on a CST–my dream job. I think at this point it’s no secret that I got the job! I’m still up in Wisconsin but should be down in Mississippi mid-August.

It’s no secret that I was itching for change…. and not just small change. I wanted to get out of the state, start with a completely blank slate. I was looking for the biggest change I could get.  And now I finally have that opportunity. Am I still over the moon and feeling incredibly blessed that I got earned the job? Heck yes. But I’d be lying if I said that I still 100% wanted to get all that change I asked for. It’s very bittersweet and next to impossible to explain just how I feel about it all.

You see, you don’t really realize the amazing place you live and the amazing people you’ve surrounded yourself with until you’re about to leave. Madison, WI has become my new home. I will always call this city home. (Caveat: I thought about living in Madison, MS but it’s not the city for me after some researching.) There’s so much to do and so many awesome people.

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Back in March I started a new position and have the best co-workers. Today was one of those days at work that made me realize that I’m so blessed to have worked with them. Without them, I wouldn’t have gotten this position. The support they pour into me is overwhelming. It’s like a second family. While I’m sure the team I’m going onto is going to be great, no one will replace the staff I work with right now. Not only would these guys take the shirt off the back to help me with anything, but they always make me laugh & have taught me outstanding life lessons.

Timing has never been my forte. As if leaving amazing co-workers, friends & family behind isn’t going to be tough enough, I managed to get involved with someone I’ve known for years as well. We both knew there would be a chance I would be moving as I was applying for CST’s nation-wide; especially him… he believed in me that I’d get a job more than I believed in myself. That didn’t make telling him that I got the job any easier. Thank goodness he is genuinely supportive of me and my endeavors (something I can’t say I’ve had before) even though he knew it’d result in me moving somewhere far away. I’m not sure what will come of that entire situation, but regardless, I’m happy for it. He’s taught me a lot and brought a lot of happiness into my life. I have zero regrets.

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The next few weeks are going to be insane. I have my ‘Going Away Happy Hour’ next week which is going to be fun, but hard. The last week of July I am taking a mini-vacation/road trip that I cannot wait for. Then I begin packing the Army comes and packs me up and I make the 900mi drive down South.

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This post is all over the place. But moral of the story is: there never is the best timing for things. You can wish and wish and wish for something, and then once you get it, the timing isn’t exactly what it was when you began wishing for it. We all take what we have for granted, but I’m here to remind you not to.

I thought I had no friends in Madison after graduation; now I’m having the hardest time leaving them. I thought I hated the winter; now I’m only going to be able to ski when I come home. I thought I’d never find a guy supportive and encouraging; now I have to say bye to him. It’s funny how things change and happen when we least expect it.

All changes, even the most longest for, have their melancholy; for that we leave behind us is a part of ourselves; we must die to one life before we can enter another. —Anatole France

Life Updates

I don’t even know where to start with what I’ve been up to. I feel like I’ve been so go-go-go that I haven’t been able to get a chance to breathe.

As a matter of fact I was supposed to go head up to the Twin Cities to watch the Central Crossfit Regional this weekend. At last minute today I decided to stay back and have a relaxing weekend because this coming week is another crazy one. So here I am finally getting in a blog post, sipping on some wine & {binge} watching Daredevil.

Screen shot 2015-05-29 at 7.18.15 PMA couple weeks ago my co-workers helped me move into my own condo-it’s so nice to have a place to myself, a place I can call my home. I love it so much. And with the help of the guys, the move went really easily! I love the view I have from backyard and I cannot wait to enjoy it more when things calm down.

Screen shot 2015-05-29 at 7.19.38 PMAs much as I love my new place, I might as well let you all in on a not-so-secret secret. This past week I flew down to Mississippi. I had an interview for my dream job, albeit NOT my dream location. Mississippi:: it is a whole different world down there …
The travel down there was a complete disaster but the interview itself went incredibly well–I should know early next week if I get the position. I’ll be over the moon if I get it since it is my dream job. But I’ll miss this condo and for once since college graduation I’m actually so happy and content with where I’m at in life. My job is great, I have awesome friends, and I’m just truly enjoying myself and having fun. So if I don’t get it, I stick out for the dream job on the WI team. It’s a win-win for me :)

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I’ve still been working out a lot. Did Murph last week and have been doing a barbell club. The gainz are real ;)

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It’s amazing what finding yourself and what you want in life, without others influences, can do for your attitude. I have become a different person and I love who I am & what I am working for. I am happy, carefree, and confident. Nothing and nobody can hold me back.

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Life Lately.

The last time I popped in I thought I was going through some of the biggest changes I could imagine.. . little did I know, that was the tip of the iceberg.

I alluded to a condo that J and I were moving in to. Well… I’m still moving in to the condo. But it’s going to just be me–that’s all it is these days; me, myself & I. There were a lot of things that weren’t healthy nor right in the relationship anymore. I start moving next week.. as much as I’m dreading the move I’m really excited to have my own place again. For those few readers I have that I talked to for advice-thanks for helping me out! I appreciate it so much <3

That being said, the past month has been a roller coaster. There were ups, there were downs and just about everything in between. Tough times make people stronger.

In terms of the job-I love my new position and it’s been keeping me incredibly busy. I’m also actively and persistently searching for jobs outside the state. There is no better time than right now to start a new adventure with a fresh slate somewhere else. While I love Wisconsin, I’m ready to experience a new place, new people. The possibilities are endless.

Now that the freshness of this adjustment is over I am committing myself to things that I let fall to the wayside the past couple months. I’m getting serious about my training at the gym again, working on my career, and digging into my relationship with God and my faith again. Here’s to the open road!

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It’s something most of us, myself included, really fear.

Just when I think I have a plan in place and am ready to move forward, a wrench is thrown right in the mix. Everyday I’m figuring out how to adapt to a new situation or possibility.

Rewind to January. I wanted to share some big news with you all (no I’m not engaged or pregnant!) for a while but I wanted to wait until it was certain. And I’m glad I waited.

Back in January J and I had an opportunity to rent a nice house for a very affordable price. On the surface everything sounded great. 3 bedrooms, 2 bathrooms, fenced in yard so we could finally get a dog, centrally located with our families, barn with weights… the problem is it was 90 minutes away from where I’m currently working and in an isolated small town.

I was going to take another huge leap of faith– I was ready to quit my job and find something that made the bills in the area. We decided to take the chance and follow through with it. My ‘D-Day’ to put my two weeks in was March 16. I was incredibly anxious about the entire situation, but also really excited.  This was a fresh new start for J and I–one we really deserved after starting the relationship with a deployment and now reintegrating everything.

On March 2, two days after we paid 2 months of rent, we found out that J also got a job in Madison. The house was still an option, but by no means the right option. A daily 3 hour commute just wasn’t worth it.

While we are currently out approximately $2k, J and I have rented a condo in Madison, I just accepted a new position (!!!!) Monday, and everything really worked out for the best.

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It was certainly a learning experience. I let my anxiety get the worst of me a handful of times the past couple weeks. There was tears, swearing, screaming..J calms me down but I need to learn to deal with change independently because no matter how planned out something is, it can change so quickly. Not always will it work out this wonderfully, but without trying, I never would have known.

Embrace change.
Learn to love change.
Complacency breeds mediocrity.

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The Perfect Getaway

Ever since J got back mid-December our weekends have been packed with visiting friends and family. Yes, we had some ‘us’ time but it was sandwiched between busy schedules and traveling. What better time to get away than Valentine’s Day?
Every Wisconsinite knows the beauty that is Door County, WI, particularly in the summer and early fall months. For all you non-Wisconsinites…Door County is the peninsula of Wisconsin, from Sturgeon Bay all the way up to Washington Island more or less. The thing many tourists don’t know is the hidden treasure that Door County is in the winter months.  The small, quaint towns more or less shut down during the winter months. But I’ll have you know the wineries stay open ;) The views are impeccable, sunsets are still gorgeous when setting over a frozen blustery Lake Michigan. The resort we stayed at had an harbor facing balcony, full kitchen, fireplace, and Jacuzzi tub. It was perfect and affordable considering all the amenities we got with the room.
The Town Hall of quaint little Ephraim, WI

The Town Hall of quaint little Ephraim, WI

Friday we got up Ephraim, WI around 3pm and decided to go out for a nice Valentine’s Day dinner. J took us to a steakhouse up the street where I got an amazing 5 course meal: Cabarnet, Sweet and Spicy Shrimp Cocktail, House Salad, Gorgonzola Tenderloin (to.die.for) and carrot cake to go!
Not going to lie, knowing that most shops close down during the winter months I was hesitant as to the quality of this steakhouse but it sure surprised me! And the atmosphere was outstanding. Low lighting and couples on all walks of life enjoying dinner as well.
Saturday was the main ‘attraction’ of the Winter Wonderland package I purchased for this get away. At 9am we drove 30 minutes and hopped on a trolley! The trolley took us to 3 wineries, an Inn for lunch, and was supposed to take us to a sleigh ride as well. Being that it was 1 degree and 30mph wind gusts, the sleigh ride was cancelled. Instead we were taken to a log cabin den for a drink on the trolley company! Nothing better than spending your Valentine’s Day day-drinking at local wineries <3 I may have scored quite a few bottles of Door County wine, some amazing olive oils, and two Master Cheese Crafted cheeses—only in Wisconsin I tell ya do we have master cheese crafters..
The Goods!

The Goods!

On our way back to our resort we drove through the Peninsula State Park for me to snap some pics with my DSLR.
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That is NOT fog.. that is snow blowing off the harbor in the 30 mph gusts. So. Cold.

That is NOT fog.. that is snow blowing off the harbor in the 30 mph gusts. So. Cold.

Saturday night we did a whole lot of nothing-which was the purpose of our getaway. I schooled him in multiple games of Yahtzee and a game of monopoly, we’re talking I won 7 of the 9 games we played of Yahtzee. We cooked up some turkey and spaghetti and just relaxed.
No TV. No distractions. Just us.
We decided we wanted to stay an extra day since I had off Monday for President’s Day. After sleeping in until 9, all we did was veg out. J ran to the store to get some whiskey and made an amazing breakfast. Around 4pm I finally changed into some warm clothes and went exploring to take some more pictures. Other than that I spent an hour in the Jacuzzi eating cheese, crackers and wine. Not a bad day :)
I'd be embarassed to admit how many attempts it took me to capture this hipster [artsy fartsy] photo.

I’d be embarassed to admit how many attempts it took me to capture this hipster [artsy fartsy] photo.

Leaving Monday morning was definitely difficult. After the serenity and peacefulness I was dreading going back to work. But only a few more weeks left and then some big big changes are coming. Stay tuned!
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The Longer the Wait… The Sweeter the Kiss.

It feels like forever ago now that I posted about finding my Mr. Forever and quickly had to send him away. As someone in the military myself, I understand how when Duty calls, you must respond. If I had a different say (or any say for that matter..) in it, he never would have had to leave for Afghanistan much less so quickly after we started dating.

On May 17th he left and he wasn’t due to be back until March of 2015. After thinking how I was going to have another horribly difficult Christmas (was broken up with Christmas Day of 2013..) I ended up getting the best early Christmas present a girl could ask and dream for.


On December 13 I got to greet J back into Wisconsin. All the difficult months spent apart were worth that moment…. seeing him walk into the terminal, smile, cry, laugh and everything in between. Until someone experiences it, the feeling when you finally see your significant other after a deployment is so surreal. It truly is/was a fairy tale.


I wasn’t the only person excited to see him. His immediate family as well as the Wisconsin Army and Air National Guard state leadership (hellllo Generals…) were also there waiting at the airport and once I finally could let him go he made his way to them.




As to be expected there’s been some bumps in the road, but they’re all worth it. Him and I have some very exciting opportunities coming our way in the next couple months and I can’t wait for them to pan out and to share them.


In the end it was all worth it, I’d do it again, although I’m certainly hoping I don’t have to :)

A Big Return

HELLLO! It’s been a long long time, in fact, I think the only reason I am able to write this is because WordPress remembered my password, cause I sure didn’t ;)

It was a chaotic fall–I went through a bit of a funk. Lost, dazed, confused… but J is back from Afghanistan now and things are sure looking up! I’ll write more about that later. But first I wanted to cut to the chase…

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It’s the start of a new year and everyone is writing up their resolutions/goals posts… I tend to make goals and not resolutions. I’m not looking to make any drastic changes because we all know that those are difficult to make and not likely to stick. Instead I’m vowing to make 2015 my year and chase down some of the things I’ve been too scared to actually do.

First and foremost, I will get a new job this year. I never have enjoyed my job… it’s gotten to the point where I cry most nights in bed on work nights now. A big opportunity did just present itself to me {and J…} so I’ve been applying in this area like crazy… police departments, correctional officers, different admin positions; you name it! Cross your fingers.. and toes ;)

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Second, I really intend to consistently blog again. I know I’ve said that before but I have found myself so down in the dumps with all the free-time I do have in the evenings. I’ve struggled lately with not having any friends around anymore, that’s the downside of being in the Army; we’re all scattered. So why not use that downtime and get some of my thoughts out, share recipes, workouts, etc.?! Plus, I’ve missed my own little corner of the interwebs.

Third, get back on my grind of CrossFit and lifting. Ever since I got back from my military training in November and then J returning, I have not been on my A-game… or anywhere near it. I am thinking of getting into power lifting meets come 2016 so I have to get my strength back up there. Hopefully I can find that passion again, I miss it but the motivation is just lagging.

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And it’s not a goal but I’m really really looking forward to what 2015 has in store for J and I. He is so deserving of good things, and I think I deserve it too–it’s been a rough past two years. Here’s to seeing what happens :D

What are your goals for 2015?